Klarathy would have liked to travel far and wide to meet other truth seekers. She had never been abroad, yet the present times provided many other ways of connecting with people all over the E’Raathian world.
On four different occasions the Nomaryan had tried to communicate with experts in personal development from her country. In all four cases, she had felt deeply disappointed with what she could see beyond her physical senses:
big egos, hyperactive intellects, and hormonal imbalances wrapped up in gilded doubletalk about harmony and awakening
inaccurate renderings of harmonizing books in English
sick competition to determine who knew more about the secrets of the Universe (what secrets?!)
frustrating discrepancy between words and actions
deliberate manipulation, for commercial purposes, of those less educated psychologically
But the worst of all was the illusion of balance—getting drunk on one’s own substanceless words. Such was the power of rhetorical flourishes over the truth-seeking masses!
Klarathy had always tried to look as inconspicuous as possible as well as stay away from big words. Real change never came from linguistic avalanches. Speaking about harmony rarely equaled living in harmony, that much she had learned … the hard way.
Too much speaking invariably brought forth a wide assortment of uncontrollable emotions, which affected both the speaker and the audience with their contradictory magnetism.
Klarathy was not much of a speaker. If possible, she would have kept her silence for days on end. But Nomaryan society, like all the other E’Raathian communities, mainly entailed direct interrelation, so she had unwillingly learned to socialize in order to fit in.
Indirect communication, meanwhile, was a much healthier alternative; not to mention that it was a less intrusive form of communication: People had more freedom to choose when to read the messages they had been sent—or whether to read them at all if they did not resonate with the written words, or with their senders.
Many harmony books acknowledged the benefits of indirect communication during the harmonizing process; Klarathy preferred re-reading the last chapter of De-Smile Yourself whenever she felt too disorientated without her Prime Voice: "When did we forget to be true to ourselves? When exactly did our third eye get frozen? When did we learn to hide our unresolved emotions behind an everything-is-OK mask? When did we start ignoring our interconnection?
"Wherever I go, I meet people who know so much about happiness, and yet they live in smiling misery. They teach others to be happy, believing as they do in the genuineness of their own experience. This is like teaching ballet when you have read dozens of books about it, but your body has never experienced the actual form of dancing.
"Our awakening can never be an intellectual act. Where there are too many words, there can never be enough room for practice. Enlightened people will only lead by example, never through explanations alone. Those who deliberately neglect their body to give more time to polishing their mind and spirit can seldom find their trinitary harmony: body, mind, and soul.
"It is hard enough as it is to keep our bodies healthy even when we invest quality time in the process. But, when we consciously ignore our physicality, it is almost impossible for us to see beyond our physical senses, or recognize the voice of our intuition, at all times.
"There are so many emotional nuances that it would be practically impossible to analyze them all, one by one, while experiencing them. The whole process would simply drive us mad. And, even if it didn’t, it would still rob us of the mere pleasure of living.
"We frequently lie to ourselves and others that everything is okay while we push further down, into the subconscious layers of our minds, all the disturbing feelings we deliberately suppress or deny. That can only make us walking bombs: Sooner or later we will either explode or implode.
"Then what should we do? We should make more use of our written words rather than our speaking skills. In writing, we are all less persona and more heart, so we should beware of people whose written messages are mainly negative. We should learn to recognize what really makes us feel good or bad instead of convincing ourselves with fake or distorted arguments that we feel that way. And, most importantly, we should learn how to decalcify our endocrine system—our bodies are crucial to our overall well-being!
"So, if we really want to break the vicious circle of our disharmony, we should start off by bringing our bodies back to (almost) perfect health. That is why teachers with sick bodies are rarely true to themselves. Somehow, along the way, they have forgotten to be the change they have been speaking about. We should be doers first, then preachers. Only applied knowledge is freedom."
Haven’t I done the exact same thing as a teacher? Klarathy hoped never (again) to be a preacher alone.
Walk as you talk ...